Our Justin

Today marks the fourth anniversary of our Justin's homegoing. Each year this month has been incredibly difficult. This year for the first time we have felt an abiding peace. I woke up this morning to birds singing and in my half-awake state began to give God my sorrow and replace it with His joy.

Sorrow that Justin is not with us.
JOY that Justin is with Jesus.
Sorrow that every event is tempered by his absence.
JOY that we will all be together again.
Sorrow that he never got to marry or have children.
JOY that Justin no longer has to deal with the earth or the flesh.
Sorrow that he is not in my arms.
JOY that Justin is surrounded by love and joy and peace.
Sorrow from parents' and siblings' broken hearts.
JOY that by faith we can be healed.
Sorrow from time that steals memories.
JOY that we will have eternity to make new ones.

Each year I try to intentionally thank all of you who have helped us along this pathway that was so unexpected, dark, long, frightening and at times nearly the death of us. You were God's hands, feet, voice and love to us and we will never forget it. I know God has not either. It is stored up for you as treasure in heaven.

So thank you friends. One day when we all get to heaven those of you who never knew Justin will get to meet him and I'm quite sure he will thank you for helping his family recover. And those of you who did know him - who know the great loss - will celebrate a great reunion.

"Weeping may endure for the night, but joy cometh in the morning."